Something I have suspected for a long time was confirmed this morning. I am sad about it but it does prove that my gut instincts were right. I sometimes doubt my gut and you’d think I’d be able to trust it by now, at my age.
Glad to have the proof and now, I move on. No looking back. Onwards to better. Sorry to be so oblique but I have found that to be best. I can say this: this post has ZERO to do with writing.
One that says- “sorry I hurt your feelings, but I’m right?”
I was the recipient of such a thing. I really don’t know how to react to something like that. Is that truly an apology? Shouldn’t an apology have no “but” attached? I may be crazy but that’s the way I look at it. Alas. I guess I’m doomed to be in the minority there. What a crazy world we live in.
Last night I attended a show in Biloxi, Mississippi called Tim Conway and Friends. It was soooo funny- I knew it would be. He has been a favorite of mine since I was a kid. I adore him. He still has that elusive quality- comic timing! He’s so funny, he makes me laugh until I cry. His monologues were hilarious and the skits were great. Dorf, the golfer, made an appearance and so did the old man with the shuffle. I wiped tears of laughter all night.
Tim had Louise Duart with him and she is an impressionist. She was fantastic. She had the voices down but also the facial expressions- She did a George Burns/Gracie Allen segment that was truly genius. Chuck McCann was the comic foil to Tim and true to the tradition, Tim cracked him up several times during the evening. It always amazes me to watch his castmates laugh at him and he never breaks character or cracks a smile.
A wonderful night. It was fantastic. 
Today is May Day, a grand tradition in many countries. Celebrations abound for spring- May 1 is another of the pagan holiday periods that were “Christianized”- the Christian church replaced various pagan rites with their own holidays- The spring rites were turned to Easter celebrations just as the fall rites were changed to All Saints Day and Christmas. The fall Irish holiday of Samhain was six months after the Irish holiday of Beltane. So, November 1 and May 1 were very big deals back then.
Beltane was the beginning of the summer season of growth and the herds of livestock were let loose into the fields to graze. There were huge bonfires to celebrate the end of winter. Samhain was the opposite- it was the celebration of the end of growing season and the last hurrah before winter set in. Bonfires were lit then as well.
I like to imagine all the fun and friendship around those various bonfires. I also imagine the liquor and other intoxicants flowed freely and many children were conceived around those fires- perhaps there’s a story there festering in my head.
May day now is much tamer. Some tradtions are to bring flowers (posies)and hang them on a door as a gift, a Maypole dance with ribbons, a queen of the May, parades and various other tamer exercises. It seems almost every culture has some celebration of spring. Some even have this day as their “labor day”- Asia, Europe, and the Americas, including Hawaii, where May 1 is Lei day, all have wonderful traditions for this time of year.
In Pensacola, it is usually Crawfish Festival time. I hope this tradition will continue. It seems a little scary now for our sea food diet (and I’m not talking mud bugs right now) what with the oil spill in the Gulf here. What a great loss to this area- our eco system in turmoil. I am greatly saddened. AND it is sure an ugly day here, too- windy, overcast and dark- no May Day flowers brightening a sunny day. Adieu.
Took the day off today and am hanging with my friends Maureen (Mo), Jennifer, and Victoria. We are having a blast. Had lunch at Fournaris Brothers, Greek restaurant. They are making me laugh my head off. I needed this time with them. They are the best and none of them suck the life out of me. They lift me up- those are the best types of friends to have- Sometimes it gets old being the one to always have to be the up-lifter. This is a nice change of pace!
AND I have gotten a great idea as I’ve sat here and am excited to get started on a new project. Such fun. The picture represents part of my idea.
A friend recommended this book by Diane Setterfield over a year ago and I bought it – it has sat in my “to be read” pile all this time. I finally pulled it out to read this week and Oh. My. Gosh. It was fab! I loved it. Very intricate plot and just a wonderful read. I highly recommend it. DON’T buy it and WAIT a year to read it. Get thee to the bookstore and read it NOW.
One side note, it made me think about what drivel I write as opposed to her. My stuff has nothing compared to hers. At all- and you know what? That’s ok, too. Each of us have different talents and I am satisfied that mine are not on a par with this woman. She is amazing. Can’t wait to see what she has up next. Put her on your radar, you won’t regret it.
I wrote zero last night. The headache got worse and I ended up just lying about like a sloth. GEEZ- have you ever looked at a sloth? They are awful looking critters. Man. I’m just sayin’. 
Hope to get off the duff tonight ’cause I don’t wanna turn out like this dude.
But can’t write now. Have massive headache. Already hit me around 3:00 and then a crazy nut case came to my office and made it worse. Took three aspirin and hope to feel better later. Hope to feel like writing before the evening is over.
Can’t get motivated this lazy Saturday to do much of anything. My leg still hurts from whatever I did to it and I have to keep moving or I hurt so much, I can’t stand it. So, I have putzed around all day.
Am enjoying the rain because the spouse can’t be outside running all kinds of machinery. He has gone to Home Depot and Garden Center to get stuff for the yard so I know as soon as the water quits falling from the sky, the vrmmm, vrmmm, vrmmm will start again. So, I’m soaking up (pun intended)the quiet before the after the storm! Could you follow that?
Have had a very busy week at work and have been beat every night. Been in some pain with my right leg for some reason, too. Trying to figure that out. Need to keep moving and stretching it out. Have nothing for pain besides Advil. So, all in all, not feeling much like writing. I HOPE to get some real progress this weekend. I AM on Chapter Two but only about 480 words into it. Let’s hope the old leg gets better so I can sit comfortably.
Ramblings of a Writer 